what we place most hopes upon, generally proves most fatal.

- the vicar of wakefield


am feeling...


reach me:
aim name: sevis drol
mail box


do you know me at all?

cast of characters

the lucky ones
a broken heart
a girl who wears glasses
the eccentricities of a night-hawk
drawing a life
are the stars out tonight?
life, love, and the pursuit of everything!!!
flat at the top of the stairs
movable ree
la raviosa
goody
true love and high adventure


photobooth
living quarters
knife fight
black hearts party
sarah baker's wedding
get the hell out party


time to waste
belle and sebastian
HAPPY TREE FRIENDS!
sinister organization
camera obscura
crime watch
learning therapy
go clones!
the hated
home away from home
your pets are alive


currently listening too...
arcade fire- funeral
the album leaf - in a safe place
the decemberists - picaresque
sleater kinney - the woods
bright eyes - i'm wide awake, it's morning
death from above 1979 - you're a woman, i'm a machine
bloc party- silent alarm
belle and sebastian - push bar man to open old wounds
iron and wine - our endless numbered days

 
COMMING SOON...FASTER AND MORE RELIABLE

so here is the deal - i have moved most of my things into my new apartment! - yeah - it is a prettynice little place in the new center of cool in sioux city - infact my windows look straight down onto the street where the bars empty out - very nice indeed - i only need to move a few more things and i will be set and ready to be self sufficent - yes i rule -

which also means that i will be getting some pictures up here of the new apartment and all the surrounding coolness - which is really not a whole lot - but oh well - i try -

the internet man comes on thursday - so no more going home to post - yeehaw -

posted by Scott at 7/28/2003 04:08:00 PM

 
A LITTLE DANCE IS ALL IT TOOK

so now i am on speaking terms with the boy again - it is nice to be talkin with him again - how this happened was really an interesting situation - so interesting that i think i might tell it here -

Time

saturday night around 11:30 after working a 16 hours shift

Place

Jones Street Station

Occasion

The end of a hell week of work which included three fights and one suicide attempt.

When i finally get to the bar from work all i wanted to do was to get a drink. I had just completeled the worst week of work i have ever had. So can you blame me for just wanting to get a mucho intoxico. I bet not. Well, i went there and just happened to find Albert there already, along with Cathy, Brandon and the boy. You might as remember the boy from previous post concerning our messed up psudeo-relationship and from the other side of paradise which happens to be about him. Well at first he wasn't talking to me and was actually just ignoring me. So i ignored right back and spoke with Cathy. She kept telling me to just don't worry about him. That i should just go on with things. But i kept telling her that it is really hard to move on with life, when you have the perfect man right infront of you. I have been billing this boy as the 'one' and continue to do so. So it was bothering me to see him ignore me. So i then decided to fuck it all and just go and drink myself into a stuper. I didn't really need to go home so i decided to just fuck it all. So i started to get drunk.

After a while i went and found Albert because i owed him a dance. I had drank some of his drink earlier and decided that i should dance with him. Because he loves to dance and I love to dance. We love to dance and that was good enough for me. So we went along with some girl we'll call Mary for simplicities sake to go shake our groove thang. It was not long after we first went out there though that a boy i had met earlier that night came up behind me. If you can see where this is going then you are not that intuitive cause it is pretty predictable. So he is grinding on me, so i turned around and danced with the boy. His name was Jonathan and happened to work at the same place that i do. Interesting uh. I thought so, and apparently this boy thought i was interesting cause he was getting pretty hot on the dance floor. He kept wanting to put his hands where they DID NOT belong. Needless to say i really didn't have that much fun dancing with him. But we did so for like three songs.

So when we finally stop dancing i go back to the people i know and take a seat by Cathy. The night finishes up pretty quickly and we all decided to go to Rebekkah Clitorus's house for an after hours party. Truth be known, there are like six people who live in that house so it is always an afair to remember. But on the car ride home i was bitching cause i wanted to call the boy and talk to him. Cathy told me not to for one reason. This is the best thing i have heard in a while.

Cathy and the boy are sitting at the bar looking onto the dance floor while i am out dancing and getting felt up by Jonathan. Apparently the boy is looking very angry which makes Cathy put forth this statement.

Cathy: It's Ok. Don't worry.
To which he responds with
The Boy: He is really making me mad right now with this.

Oh my god what is this? Does someone really have some feelings?

posted by Scott at 7/14/2003 03:09:00 PM

 
...IT SURE BEATS GETTING CLUBBED TO DEATH

from what i understand this book is quite wonderful - two people i know have read it - and from what i gather it sounds like it is pretty good - perhaps i will stop my series of unfortunate events and order a copy to read -

Hello, Mr. Pushover. You're Gabriel Gallon, you
have a barely requited crush on a madwoman who
will break your heart a yillion times before
it's over with...but you can cook superbly! Not
that it will matter since you'll never have
anyone to cook for but - hey - everyone needs a
skill!


Which Member Of The Basic Eight Are You?
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posted by Scott at 7/14/2003 01:05:00 AM

 
A GOOD PLACE FOR A BAD BEGINNING

so my officially starting over in sioux city has been postponed again - i haven't yet gotten the apartment because of some other hold up - but the lady did promise me that i have it secured under my name and i will have a lease to sign as soon as tuesday - great - i am actually very exicted about this - my mother and i went shopping for some odds and ends on my birthday - on a side note i turned 24 on wednesday the 9th - we got some wonderful red pillows for my couch and a nice little plant stand for the kitchen - it should all look very well i think once it all gets into place - - and i will deffinetly have some photos of the new pad up on here soon - once i move into the city i will be able to scan photos again - now i live in the boonies and it takes me forever to get anywhere - so i have little time for scanning things -

but now i am the proud renter of a nice little two bedroom apartment in the historic district of town - specifically in the call terminal building - the pictures of the rooms look awefully cluttered - i assure you they are bigger then they look - but now i just have to decided what to put in the second bedroom - what to do indeed! - i am not sure at all - i am toying between an actual second bedroom/office - a place where my weekend guests can stay and i can do my typing - or just an office with a couch in it - where i can do work and relax - i think that i am leaning more to the first bedroom/office - i think yes - but then i will have to buy some new sheets for the second bed i have - !!! - oh my god what fun this is - right now i have these sexy nautica sheets on my bed - oh i love them! they are so soft - maybe you'll get to try them out sometime!! - haha - no

right now i have a basic diagram of what i want everything to look like in the house - i have my red couch and my two 1940's gold chairs for the living room furnature - my television will be sitting along with my dvd and some movies i am sure on top of my large steamer trunk (that found at a garage sale for 6 bucks! rock!) - then i have my crate and barrel coffee table and end tables - and the book case that matches the tables - which will be filled with books not movies like my brother suggested- maybe a plant if i have adequate light - in the kitchen i will be using my 1950's authentic metal table for the kitche table - it looks just like the tables that luke has in his dinner on the gilmore girls - oh i love it - bedroom is just bed, dresser and if i have room a desk for the laptop - and then the second bedroom - i am still wondering - the bathroom i am working on a decorating scheme right now - colors are black, cream and white - yes - and i have even found this kick ass terry cloth shower curtian that i believe i will be buying - oh well - i guess it will all be seen when i get some photos up of it - hehe - i am suck a dork describing what decorating i am gonna do - - - - well a gay dork that is -

on another last little note - i had a good birthday - i went out with my parents to see pirates of the carribiean and then went shopping with my mum - followed by some work packing things up and me falling asleep while i read a series of unfortunate events: the reptile room - all in all a fine dandy of a birthday - not too bad and not too good - just all around average - actually it was just what i wanted to do on my birthday - absolutely nothing at all -

posted by Scott at 7/12/2003 12:14:00 AM

 
JUST GIVE UP

so i have just given up on the boy and myself ever being together - unless we get trapped in some sinking russian submarine - i seriously doubt that we will ever spend some 'time' together again - although i am a little miffed - i do believe i have found a personal of him in the internet - and lets just say the photos are a little reveiling - it leaves nothing for the imagination - with the caption of (horney) underneath all of them - ok that is too much for me - a little bit disgusted i am - but oh well - what can i really do about it - i would love to be with him - but till he figures that out - let him do who he wants - blah -

last night i went out with rebekkah clitorus, albert and kathy - i met them at bill's bar (which is my new favorite bar) and i proceeded to get trashed - i had five drinks there in two hours and then at home i had three shots of pucker and two 40's of smirnoff - yeah it was a bad night for me - i really needed to let out some stress and i guessed the best way for me to do that was to drink myself into a coma - so i did - i puked three times today - including one time at four o'clock in the afternoon - that is just nuts - i can't believe i did that - dumbass boy that i am - but i had a good time and that is all that counts - right? - unfortunatly i did have to walk through the ghetto of sioux city to get back to my car that i left at bills bar - just me reading my little series of unfortunate events book and drinking some water - while the ghetto life went on around me - i was actually surprised i wasn't called a cracker or had something thrown at me -

TOMORROW IS MY BIRTHDAY
which is completely wicked awesome - my parents took me shopping today after i finished puking - i got two new pillows for my couch and a little plant stand for my new apartment - which as of now i am getting a two bedroom - cause somehow the bitch at the place messed up and oh god - yeah who knows what they did - but they gave away my apartment and now i have a two bedroom big monster apt - that is cool for me though - more room and now i can have guests!!!! and a guest room!!!!! - oh my i am such a dork - but i can't wait for it! - but yeah - so far it has been a good pre-birthday - i am not sure whether i am going to get plowed anymore cause of last nights incident - but we'll see - who knows -

because of the apt thing i am not sure if i will be writing for sometime - moving and all - but i'll let you know what happens - and i am working on pics too! - much love to you all -

posted by Scott at 7/08/2003 09:09:00 PM